It’s heartbreaking, no that’s not the word for it. It’s devastating, catastrophic, the type of heart break you only read about in books. Realizing that who you thought would be your forever person was only your then person crushes you in a way someone could only understand if they’ve been through it. You build a life around someone you think will be there forever then one day they’re gone and you have to start all over. You don’t just rebuild your life, you rebuild yourself. It’s the type of thing where you have no idea where to go next, no one to talk to, lay in bed all day for weeks crying type of devastation. It’s the type of heartbreak that people who haven’t been through it wish they could experience. But it’s not romantic, it isn’t cute, it doesn’t end up like all the movies, it is terrible and you feel like you may die. You can’t breath or think or do anything except cry and fuck it hurts. It just fucking hurts.
— how do i come back from this